It's been too long old friend

So just because I have a disease it doesn't mean that I don't want friends anymore.  :(  I am trying not to feel sorry for myself, but sometimes it's impossible to do.  The only people that call my phone any more are family members and/or people from work (at the church).  I know that having Lyme disease isolates me......ALOT, but I still want to have friends.  I know I'm not the best at calling back, or texting back, or communicating at all, but I want to try at least.  It's so hard to have friends and make plans or something, only to have them interrupted all the time by a debilitating illness.  My sister calls me this morning wanted to tell me something "before I went back to sleep" she says.  I know I know, I sleep ALOT, but it's just part of Lyme disease.  I cannot make myself wake up more, or be more aware.  I try, it just doesn't work.  I am having a very hard time lately with joint pain and fatigue.  Those are my two worst symptoms, at least this week.  Oh.....I forgot to mention that I had to have my port in my chest taken out after just having it for three weeks.  It made me develop "multiple embolisms" in my lungs.  Fun right?!?! Nothing more scary than being told you have blood clots in your lungs.  So, port was surgically removed immediately and blood thinners were started.  I will be taking those for the next nine months or so.  Since I was doing Clyndamycin twice a day through my IV, the doctor switched me to oral Bactrim for the time being, at least until the blood clots are gone.  That delays my treatment plan for a while.  Oh well, seems like it's always something.  Anyhow, I want to try the friend thing again please.  They will just have to realize I cannot do as much as I used to, I've been given a different life, thank you Lyme,,,,,NOT.